Nakakatuwa..

Sorry po sa ssbhin ko.. pero nakakatuwa tlga ee.

. May ppntahan kaung place nagsbi ka nmn na malalate ka. Nagtxt ka. Tapos nung papunta ka na dun sa place na un, ibababa ka ng Hinayupak na Driver sa God damn street na sobrang LAYO sa ppntahan mo partida katirikan ng araw at naiwan mo ang payong mo sa pagmamadali at dahil nga malayo mukha ka ngayong **** na naghahanap ng street. May kasalanan din nmn ako kahit papano kasi late ako..


<<<<<Pero bakit ako late? kasi nung papaalis na ko ayaw nang pumayag ng mama ko na umalis ako bukas nlng daw. tapos pinili-pilit ko pa, edi pumayag>>>>>.


Txt ka ng txt. Tpos WAIT daw.. ikaw nmn tong c ***** na nagwait.. wala na pala sila doon.  ndi manlng sinabi na wala na pala sila doon db? para sana umalis ka na kaso ndi pinagwait ka pa ee ang init init. after Ten freaking minutes ssbhan or should i say i-t-txt ka na On the way na sila sa ibang Lugar. ansaya db??  palakpakan tayo.! pero ung una mong txt e nagttnong ka na nasan na sila. ang galing tlaga ng sagot. grabe. para ka tuloy ngayong ****.


Minsan ka lng aantayin ndi pa nagawaa grabe pero pag ikaw, mukha ka ng **** sa kakaantay sa kanila pag umaalis kau ndi m nmn cla iniiwan. db? angaling no? pag cla pero pag ikaw na umasa ka pa.! ganyan nmn talga ee. Pero partida pag iba kahit ang tagal tagal na nilang nagaantay OK lng sa mga **** partida pa un aa kasi ndi nagssbi ung mga un... so sobrang saya lng tlga as in sobra sobra.!


Dapat tlga ndi ka nageexpect sa mga tao para ndi ka nagmumukhang tanga, actually kahit sa "friends" mo kasi same results.... Disappointment.


- ndi nmn ako madalas magtampo ung as in tampo talaga...

pero…  haist, nakakinis lng tlga, bkt kpag magttampo ako tapos may makakaalam tatawa nakakatawa ba un? bkt ka nagtampo? kasi may dahilan db? ano nmn tingin mo sakin high o adik para magtampo ng walang dahilan?.. kaya paano mo nmn ssbhin db?  kaya nakakatawa tlga db? sobra nga ee. pwede na siguro akong maging clown ang lakas kasi ng sense of humor ko ee. tawa tau ha… ha… ha…

. actually pang ilan na.. sabi sau wag ka muna magpaganyan kasi sabay sabay daw kau. tapos makikita mo meron na sila.. ang galing.. :D sunod.. hanggat hindi nila narerealize na baka magtampo ka ok lng sa kanila na magisa kahit na in the first place sumama ka lng dun para ndi sila magtampo sau kahit alam mo na wala ka namang ggwin dun. tapos magaantay lng, wala din… tsss. disappointment nlng palagi.. >.< grabehan lng talaga.. Nkakatuwa. ha… ha… ha… 

-- kung kababawan man to sa tignin mo I DO NOT FREAKING FUCKING CARE. kasi ndi nmn ikaw ung nagmukhang **** dun sa ****** ***** lugar na un kakaintay sa mga mababait mong "kaibigan" na iniwan ka lang na parang ****.

isa itong NAKAKATUWANG araw..

lalng

Kahapon ay nag exam kami ni Danice sa MApua Institue of Technology sa Manila. :D

ndi ko masabi kung madali or mahirap ung exam para kasing ewan ee :DD pero sana makapasa SANA talaga :DD NkapagUSTET na rin ako at UPCAT. :D sana may mapasa nmn ako :D

 . . . ang hirap Ma-LEFT-OUT (sobra) . . .

  . paano ko ba ito sisimulan? ang hirap ee. i want to say the things i feel but i can't seem to think of appropriate words. I don't even know where to start.

 . so i'll just start by saying: Out Of Place ay parang nagiging constant feeling ko na ngaun around the people I was Close to BEFORE. I am becoming distant to them (I know) because they are like that to me, it's not that i am taking on a revenge but it is just hard to be close to people who are putting walls between them and you. I started to feel like these a couple of months ago. I admit that Loading isn't something I do regularly, but I think that shouldn't be the reason why i should be LEFT OUT.
( kasi wala lng akong load andami ko ng hindi alam, tpos pag nagtanong ka sa kanila sa personal ang ssbhin sau "magpaload ka kasi" bakit ganun db? bawal ba nilang sbhin un sa personal? hindi ba pwede?)

 . I am also Hurt in a way < not super hurt but kind a hurt> because they don't treat me the way they treat each other. I can't fully explain it but it's like that. I am ALWAYS the last person to know anything from most of them ( from the things they talked about, the things they feel about somethings or someone and many others). It also hurt when they seem to ignore you ( they may did it unintentionally but it still hurt the same way). I always and constantly feel that there are many thing I don't know about them which I should've because we are supposed to be "FRIENDS", i don't blame the others if they feel that they should always ask because the others won't tell it to you willingly.

 . One thing I think that you should know about me is that I don't like being a Fool and I don't stick around especially when i am feeling that i am unwanted. I don't stick around when I am unwanted because I can't bear the thought that there are people who can;t seem to tolerate my presence. I don't want to be labelled as "Kill Joy" and most certainly "panira". Fool because I don't deserve it, I trust you but then why can't you trust me back? I can't think of other explanation possible for your actions. Because I believe that IF and ONLY IF you trust someone you can tell him/her anything but since you don't what more can i expect? I don't also know what is your BIG problem in me having new friends? are you genuinely jealous or you just feel that way because you don't like the person I am close to now. ( i didn't mean to offend you but i can't help feeling this way).

. I don't talk much now because according to many "Madaldal daw ako" so eto mananahimik nalng ako para wala kaung maging problema. nakakhiya nmn kasi ee. I am serious most of the time cause there wasn't anything that i find funny.

. I don't tell them these things because they will just misunderstand it and they are going to twist my words and give their own damn interpretation without telling you. They are gonna conclude something and believe their own without hearing you out first OR they will tell you they UNDERSTAND you but the truth is that they never actually "really understand you".

 . I don't hate you guys that is one thing that i can ULTIMATELY ASSURE you . I am not faking my responses to you but when i am with you i always think of the actions and things you say in front of me that is why I don't say anything much.

- i don't know if it was just me who has a problem or is it really you. I hope this is just a misunderstand we can sort out. You are equally important to me because you were a part of my teenage life my growing years are with you. so i hop we can sort this out.

IniS

   . naisipan kong magblog ngaun kasi ang damidamidamidamidami kong mga bagay na gustong sbhin pero ndi ko alam kung paano, kaya naisip ka na magpost nlng. :D

  . nung isang araw naluha ako <saglit lng nmn>, naiyak ako kasi:

masama ang pakiramdam ko + masakit lalamunan ko + mainit ang panahon + kailangan ko pang makipagkompetensya sa mga maiingay ng classroom namin + magiisip ka pa ng mga bagay na ggawen nio para sa project nio + hihingiin mo ang opinyon ng lahat para walng magtampo ever + hindi ka pinakikingan + binabalewala ka lng = "luha"

  . kahit parang OA ok lng sakin kasi naiinis tlga ako. ung tipong nageeffort ka ng todo tapos babalewalain lng nila un , ndi ka papakinggan ung mga ganun. tpos kahit ung iba mong mga "kaibigan" hindi ka din nmn pinakikinggan. at naghaharutan pa. nakakainis nmn tlga. 

. kanina nainis uli ako kasi ung nangyari nung isang araw nauulit nanaman, buti nlng tinulungan ako kanina ni Smith < thank you >. Pero ang hirap padin kasi ndi ka nila pinapakinggan, hirap silang gawin  un<as in>. 

. buti nmn at may napagusapan kanina na ggwen para bukas. SOrry Kay Mary Therese Jucay < sorry tlga> kasi sia ang napagbuntungan k ng inis ko kanina. sorry. 

-that's all..

Cute girls hairstyle

  . It's been a while since i last post and I decided to post tonight to share to you guys about my favorite channel of youtube, the "Cute girls hairstyle" it is where i get my hairstyle inspiration and techniques.

The video uploader was named "Mindy".

:D Her style are for little girls but may be apply to teenage girls such as my self. I really love them :D. She always share new ways on how to tie our hair according to style as well as your hair length, and your hair type. I usually try the hairstyles to my sister and classmates mainly because i find it hard to do on my self.

My favorite hairstyle that i learn from her was the french braid, from the easiest french braid to a more complex french braid. I just can't help but love it.

She recently posted a video about hair care. I just watched it. here is it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wx3TNYdDU5c&list=UU2LgZ_4GzSFQS-3a87_Jc6w&index=3&feature=plcp

.that's the link. hope you can get tips from there. :DDD

I also visited her website and here are the tips you can use for the betterment of your hair (these are general tips):

1. Drink a lot of water.
2. Eat healthy foods, especially plenty of fruits and veggies.
3. Take a multi-vitamin to supplement what you may not be assimilating from your food {and drink milk}. Biotin is also a very good supplement to take.
4. Regular hair trims {to eliminate dry, damaged, or split ends}. Just the ends, you do not need to take much more off.
5. Don’t over-wash your hair {about once every 3-4 days is ideal for most}. Trust me on this one. Now, I still shower often, I simply wash my hair every 3-4 days. We just wear a shower cap or tie our hair up into a high hair bun.
6. Try not to overuse heat or chemicals {perms, colorings, etc}

that was from her :D hehe.. 

. that was all :DD hope you find it as informative as i do. :D

-pai :))

I tried.

Believe it or not I tried to understand you. I keep trying not to let the words they speak hit my nerves but they still do unfortunately.

I am not deceiving you by being close to you even though I myself do not very much appreciate your actions or choice of words. I am still close to you because I keep TELLING MYSELF that you are just changing like me and everyone else but sometimes you are crossing the line. You do not sometimes care on what kind of words comes out of your mouth, you sometimes don't care if someone might be hurt, you just want to express, whatever it is that you like to which for me is a bit unfair especially if you say those things in public then the person to whom you are telling those stuff can do nothing but sit and stare.

They say that you are a user, you're just close to me or to anyone because you need something from them. I do not want to believe them so please do not give me reasons to.

Believe me I tried But I still fail to understand you. I know that you do not mean to hurt people by expressing yourself but please be mindful that although unconsciously we can hurt others so please be mindful.

I am trying my best not to be influenced by their comments to you but I am finding it hard to do when you gave me proof of their allegations.

Buhos :(

SORRY

• kung hindi na ako nakksama.
• kung lagi akong tahimik.
• kung hindi na ako ang Letty noon.
• kung wala na akong time sa inyo. 
• kung lagi akong walang load.
• kung hindi ako gaanong nagpapramdam sa inyo.
• kung nagbago ako.
• kung naging mataray ako.
• kung naging masungit ako.
• kung nadidisappoint ko kau

sorry tlaga. pero lahat naman may reasons ee. hindi na ako nkksama kasi wala namang nangaaya, kasi wala namang nagssbi sakin. paano ko naman malalaman na aalis pala kung wala namang magssbi? paano nio ieexpect na sasama ako kung in the first place ndi nio naman ako niyaya, ayoko namang i-invite ang sarili ko sa mga lakad nio. nagkakataon na magkksama kau? pwede ba un? edi sige sabi nio ee. Bkt ndi ako nagtatanong? anu un araw araw ako na magtatnung ng "ui may lakad ba tau?".. pero  pag kau kau sabhan lng..  hindi rin ako masyadong sumasama kasi pag sumama ako maguusap-usap pero ung paguusapan ndi ko naman alam at pagnagtanong naman ako ang ssbhin "hindi ka kasi sumasama ee" ano un? kaya ka nga nandun para malaman db?.. at para makacathc-up sa mga nangyayari.. pero ndi un ung mangyayari..  At nung umalis nmn na nagsimula sa masayng araw na nauwi sa SARCASM, WALANG IMIKAN at AWKWARD FEELING.. pag nagtanung k ssbhin n wala lng silang problema.. anu ba un?..  OK lng ang secrets kasi normal nmn un ee.. kahit ako may mga secrets.. pero ung paguusapan nio un sa HARAP ko at nagtanong ako kung ano un ssbhin nio WALA YUN. ano naman ang tingin ninyo sakin tanga o bobo para maniwala?.. at kapag sa txt nung tym na may load ako at nagttxt nagtatanong ako ng mga bagay na ndi nio naman snisagot db? ano ang use ng pagloload ko... anung use ng pagttxt ko kung puro hula lng ang ggwen ko..? anong use ng pagtatanong ko kung wala namang sumasagot. "hindi ako nagkukwento" ano ba ang ikukwento ko? wala naman ee,  lahat nmn snsbi ko aa. kung nageexpect kau ng kwentong Crush at Anything that relates alam nio namang wala kaya wag un ng un ang binabalik nio sakin. kasi wala nmn talga... 

Kung may ayaw kaung sbhin sakin or ayaw niong ishare ok lng naman sakin un ee.. kasi normal nmn un, may mga bagay tlaga na ndi natin feel sbhin sa iba PERO please namn parang awa nio naman na "wag nio namang ipaalam".. kasi ayokong magmukhang tanga.. mabuti pa ung iba alam nila. tapos ako na "malapit" sa inyo ndi ko alam.. parang ewan lng db? ndi din nmn ako manhid.. ndi rin ako tanga, bobo, inutil, mang mang at walang pakialam para ndi mafeel na marami akong indi alam. 

Alam nio ba na mas masakit ang malaman mo na hindi ka manlang inimbitahan ng mga tao na itinuturing mong mga malalapit na kaibigan sa lakad na ppuntahan nila? at by the ways ndi ka manlang nga nila sinabihan ee  tpos malalaman mo nlng na umalis pala sila db? tapos tatanungin ka kung bakit ndi ka sumama BKT NGA BA??  

Isa pang masakit. ANG MGA TAONG NA TINUTURING MO BILANG TOTOONG MGA KAIBIGAN AY TINUTURING KANG PARANG "ISANG STRANGER" NA HINDI NILA KAYANG PAGKATIWALAAN NG KAHIT ANUNG BAGAY.